October's Rain

Before September

I haven’t posted in weeks, but I’ve been busy swamped in school/work. I literally live in my desk and at Ross. It’s been exhausting. Hopefully four days off work will give me time to get caught up on manuscripts. So far I’ve really enjoyed this school year and I’m taking a lot of pride in my work, I’m working hard for a good GPA this semester to qualify me for some internships next fall. I’m not sure what kind though, because like last year, I’m unsure entirely of what I want to do. There are a few things that are falling thankfully into place, like my new sense of finance. I’ve started a savings for Chris and myself, where we’ll be able to mutually contribute for the future :)) Also, I’ve started making payments on my student loans (still in college) but I’ve been told it’s really helpful when you get out. I’ve also begun a plan for purchasing a new car. It shouldn’t take me long to get ready, but hopefully my car holds out until then.

I’m really excited about a few things coming up, for example, my birthday and Thanksgiving. This year for Thanksgiving I’m going to see my sister in Indiana, but CHRIS IS GOING WITH ME. I’m so excited I can hardly stand it. I know it’s just Thanksgiving, but then that’s how things always start. :)

At the very least, it was honest.

Today is my first day back to work after a very long and relaxing week down in Houston. That’s right “relaxing” for the first time ever. Every time I’m there things get a little easier, but we did however hit a brick wall. I naturally assumed that because I spent last Thanksgiving in Houston, this year Chris and I would spend it with my family. His parents response to our suggestion was “We’ll see.” We’ll see? He’s 22 years old. Ugh. 

Speaking of being 22 years old, Chris had his birthday yesterday. Nothing special, we just spent the day together and then had dinner and went to see the Change Up. I heard a lot of reviews saying the movie was foul and had a lot of nudity…obviously none of these people have ever seen Wedding Crashers. It was funny and at least gave me a good laugh. I’ve also seen both Friends with Benefits and Crazy Stupid Love, both of which were very happy and finally had some originality. Hollywood’s been slacking for a few years creating remakes of old movies (Even Dirty Dancing is on the front line.)

Hopefully everything I’m planning for the next six months of my life works out. I’m so stressed it’s absolutely unreal. Ugh!!!! But on a lighter and less stressful note: I’m very eager to be back in school. I’ve been daydreaming about doing anything besides working ALL THE TIME. I’m set to get my school supplies on the 15, along with a dentist appointment. 

(The Birthday Boy before dinner and our movie :))

(I dyed my hair a dark auburn and before I got back from Houston, it completely faded.)

Take 5

All these new television shows (sponsored by Starz) such as the Tudors, Pillars, and now a new one Camelot, are making me wish I had lived in a much more perilous, more important time in the world. This is one is much more intriguing with a strong plot and much better acting. It’s obviously the story of King Arthur with a more modern twist. 

Not much has changed this summer. I’m excited for my week off work, but questionable about my trip to Houston. Spring break wasn’t exactly everything I’d hoped it would be, but I’m much more excited this time. This upcoming week I’m taking my mom and dad to see Harry Potter :) We missed the midnight premiere (story for another time). Also, I’ll be cleaning out Chris’s apartment on Wednesday to prepare it for his mother and grandmother. Sigh… Not exactly how I dream of spending my day off. 

Chris and I did get our new bed complete with matching sheets :)

Sorry for the lack of pictures, I’ve lost my camera.

Back to her.

I just finished this book. If you love scandal, this is definitely a book for you. It had some rough patches of bad parts, but the story line was incredibly fascinating. A mystery and a massive scandal, along with some good life morals and tales. It was a great read especially on a 14 hour car drive. 

So that’s all in reading but what have I been watching? Well because Chris and I can’t afford cable, I’ve been watching Teen Mom online and the Netflix has been keeping us entertained. Last night we watched My Soul to take, which actually turned out to be a pretty good movie. The story line was very typical, but the acting was good, quirky, and funny at times. Next on my list is a new Natalie Portman movie, The Other Woman. I’ll have to watch it without Chris. But what Chris and I are watching together, every episode, is Hoarders. This show has me captivated that people can live like this. Makes me want to be a professional organizer. 

Tomorrow is my double discount day at Ross (40% off) which I’m super excited about. I’m hoping to get new school clothes, a lunch box, and of course some new things for the house. Chris will also be getting some new clothes, because somehow he’s lost weight and now wears a size 36. So new shorts are on the horizon and my discount will make all men’s shorts only 6 dollars! 

After today, I have three days off in a row and nothing to do. I think I may head to the pool and read. I’ve been slacking on my summer reading and I’m trying to get back to the habit before school starts back up. I’m completely excited for school to begin, because I feel so useless only working at Ross and sleeping all day. Hopefully when school begins I’ll begin to feel more useful. 

Lately

Our trip to Indiana was so so. Chris ended up dropping his summer class so he decided to go with :) thank goodness he went. The trip turned out to a dramatic fiasco with mixed results. Needless to say, I’m glad it’s over.

(my dad nabbed this pic at a steak and shake in muncie. It’s clearly posed, but precious nonetheless.)

News: Chris and I just got our first king size bed :) Chris’s feet will no longer be hanging off the end! (Pics later)

In the Future: We’ll be in Houston for a week in August 1-8. But we’ll be back just in time to share his birthday together. Still no present, but I’m working on it. 

So as of lately life has calmed down and I’ve gotten into a normal rhythm. I’ve just been working and slowly spending time with friends and family. Sadly I have to to work the entire holiday weekend, but on the Fourth I get off at 3:00. So Chris and I are driving home to eat and spend time with my family. My aunt and uncle are going to set of fireworks and both my sisters will be there. Now I’m off to have dinner and movies with Chris. I won’t be posting until after the fourth :) 

Ta ta for now. 

We don’t have secrets.

I’ve been feeling so lost lately. All my life down to the very second every “epic” moment has been planned. From the moment I stepped foot in high school I knew I would come to Oklahoma State and I knew my major would be English. I also knew I would soon be a writer/publisher. I constantly catch myself doing this for my new future: Cars, marriage, housing, babies, etc. It’s like a disease that I just can’t shake. But now looking back on all my silly plans I’ve come to the realization that my “plans” were not at all what I wanted or planned on. I came to OSU and my first year here was absolutely horrible. I hated it so much and recently after my sister’s graduation I’ve started to feel completely alone. It dawned on me a few days ago, that if Chris and I had never met, I would’ve moved back home this summer. 

I’ve never had a knack for making friends, but as of late I’ve tried very hard to expand from that. I’m doing really well making friends at work and trying to suppress my anxiety I feel from other people. Not only have I been doing so well making friends but I firmly believe my friendship with Chris grows everyday. Our relationship didn’t start as friends like everyone else in the world. We sorta jumped into everything, but I’m absolutely sure now that he is my very best friend. We live together full time (like we have been since August) and I can honestly say that I feel like I’ve known him for my entire life.

I planned every moment, but I didn’t plan on so many changes. I feel like a completely different person from the girl I once was. I think for the first time in my life: School, work, friends, love, people, relationships, money, etc. I feel very proud and successful. Regardless of whether or not I live in a cardboard box and eat Ramen Noodles for the rest of my life, as long as I am truly happy that is all that really matters. It’s all that ever mattered. 

Don’t be ridiculous.

Well nothing’s changed much! I got some new clothes that I’m very excited about! Including my swim suit, which I wore the other night for a late night swim with work friends!

I’m really pretty proud of myself for making new friends. I’m pretty much a hermit and I don’t get out much. 98% of the time it’s just me and Chris. But after closing night after night with this crowd, I’ve come to find out that not very many of us have friends at all :/ so we figured we should all be friends :)

Speaking of Ross and working: my hours recently got cut :( this makes me very angry, but it didn’t stop me from buying some new clothes for my wardrobe:

I love long sleeved shirts! So I was really excited to find this little beauty among our summer clothes. It fits loosely and I think it’ll look fantastic with pearls and skinnys!

Now the boots and scarf are old news, but this is a new dress. It’s a really dark navy and I really like the fit. I’m thinking it’ll look really good with these leggings, but I’m not sure because I think they need to be white, not grey. I’m sure around winter some white/beige ones will come out. 

Some other things you haven’t seen yet… Chris and I have had a lot of trouble putting all our clothes into one dresser and I needed a new shoe rack. So Chris and Daddy teamed up and built me something AMAZING and super fierce. Because Chris and I live together, I thought my pink and zebra bedroom was a little inappropriate. So my spare room has become the new pink and zebra room.

The mirror still isn’t hung up but I’ll take care of that later.

Chris and I went on a date Friday night. :) We had Chilies and went to see the Green Lantern. It was OK, nerdy and a boy movie but it was alright. Although I learned today that it was made on a 200 million dollar budget  and only succeeded in making 52 million it’s opening weekend. EEk.

I work till close tonight as usual, but I’m hoping to get off early and get back ona normal sleeping schedule soon :)

Bag. Borrow. Steal.

I finally got my new bathing suit in the mail! Remember that bathing suit I wanted back in April? Well I told myself not to buy it, but I ended up doing it anyway. I must say, I have never been happier with a purchase. :)

At first I was unsure what it would look like, but I find it extremely flattering. I was so happy with my choice.

It’s father’s day weekend and as such Ross will be open till 11 tomorrow :/ 3-11 isn’t exactly how I want to spend my weekend out. So took make up for a loss of my Saturday night. Chris is taking me to eat and to see the Green Lantern. I’m excited and later we’re having drinks with friends.